My fast is over… I was going to say my fast went fast, but then the lame light bulb went off and I scrapped it…
I decided to end my fast Monday afternoon. I had made my peace with God about it… I felt as though I have grown a deeper connection with God, I’ve shown Him that I yearn to be faithful, that I want a commitment to Him, and that I want to continue to walk with Him as my focus.
Physically I feel healthier… my IBS seems under control… my fatigue that I usually suffer from seems to be lessened… My body feels better and stronger…. I feel better and stronger… I realize now that it wasn’t just about will power all these years it was about His power… that was what I was lacking…
Where do we go from here…
I plan on continuing to eat as cleanly as possible… I want to cut out the majority of processed foods from my diet… there are however some things I cannot live without… ok I could live without them I’m choosing not too… such as fake butter… salad dressings… and the occasional piece of candy or sweet…. I do however plan on trying to do say 90/10… 90% of the time I want to eat whole and natural foods… 10% of the time I will have little add ins and extras… I do want to try to cut out the artificial sweeteners as best I can… I am looking at different alternatives to sweeten up my life… I also am going to continue to moderate my caffeine in-take… I realized how much I was addicted to and relying on caffeine and as much as I love coffee and tea I really only love it with artificial garbage in it… I don’t drink black coffee or plain tea… so maybe all these years I’ve really only liked the taste of hot artificial sweeteners and flavored creams.
Monday night I had my monthly Girlfriends meeting… it is such a blast and the food is always amazing… This month’s theme was Hillybilly Night…
I had a large salad with poppy seed dressing, a small cup of soup beans, a small pumpkin cookie, and a handful of candy corns…. Yums!
Tuesday…
I started off this morning with a big breakfast… the one thing I missed most on the fast was eggs… I love eggs… I’m not sure why this is or when this fascination with eggs began, but I really could eat them everyday... For breakfast I had two hard boiled eggs with salt and pepper and ¾ of a cup of cold oatmeal with 1 TBSP of Natural PB and 1 medium banana… I like to make a large pot of slow cook oatmeal on Sundays… then during the week I can scoop out a portion and fix it however I chose… I really have enjoyed eating it as a ‘cold’ cereal with PB and fresh banana stirred in… I use the steel cut oats which are a thicker and heartier variety…
Snack: 1 fig, 1 prune, and 18 almonds… I have these in little box containers in my desk… it’s a great snack… it’s filling sweet and crunchy… it’s just enough to hold me over until lunch time…
Lunch: 1 very large salad with homemade raspberry vinaigrette. I brought salad for all my friends today since I had a bunch left from last night… mmm salad… I really do enjoy the crunchy refreshment of salad…
* For the vinaigrette I used 1 TBSP of Simply preserves Raspberry Jam + oil + vinegar
Snack: 1 tangerine
Dinner: salad
Snack: Banana
Tonight was my weekly Faithfully Fit meeting… we started a new thing this week… we are now doing a biggest loser style competition… no one is getting sent home of course… it’s just a weight loss challenge… each person is kicking in $20… the person who loses the highest % will win the ‘pot’… this contest will run until the week of Christmas… That’s a long time an 2 holidays to stay on track through… I however being stingy and having a mean competitive streak really wants to win… ok so I really also want to beat my friend Karen… Karen if you are reading this I love you and the other girls with all my heart, but I want to kick your tush! *insert game face* You are going down FF girls!!! Down!!! From the last ‘session’ that we did Karen had this biggest % of weight loss and I was trailing her followed by our friend Tiff… This is a new session sisters and you best be prepared for a hurting!
To rap up our Made to Crave Series....
I weighed in originally in June at 259 tonight I was down a total of 18lbs.... I have also lost 16.5inches.
I'm very proud of myself and very excited to start the new competition... I want to push myself a little hard and I plan on spending a lot more time exercising and getting in to really good phsyical shape not just dropping the pounds!
J We weigh in at night so I weigh a little heavier at night then in the am… This morning I weighed in at about 238… this # really scares me… I start getting nervous when I start achieving success… and well as an adult I’ve never been under 233… the last time I lost weight was 2 yrs ago… I hit 233 then I had to have surgery then things hit the fan and exploded and life turned into a big pile of triple fudge cake… and I gained it all back and then some… but the lowest I can ever remember being as an adult was 233… I’m coming up on that number again… it worries me and it scares me… what if… what if… I hit 230 or 225 or I keep actually losing weight… what if this whole eating healthy and exercising thing actually works and I really lose 100lbs… then what.. If you’ve never been thin then you have no point of reference... I graduated high school at a size 22/24… I’ve never really been lower… I don’t know what I’ll look like, how I’ll feel, how clothes will fit me… I know this seems crazy and that I should be happy and excited, but boy oh boy is it scary… I mean what if… So then I must turn to God and ask Him to guide me…. Jesus give me your strength to not fail this time… to keep going and to know that with you on my side Christ then what shall I fear…
Praises: God I am sooo thankful for this journey that you have put before me… I used to see this weight as a curse… instead I now see it as a learning experience… you have showed me where gluttony and greed with food will get me… I can now apply that to all aspects of my life… I realize the paths that I went down previously were of my own choice Lord and not of your guidance… for Father if I would have followed your path from the very beginning I would never have had to have gone through the pain and torments that I have had to endure… I often feel like the prodigal son coming back and asking for a meager allotment and you showing me with all of your love… I know I am not worthy Lord and there is nothing I can give you other then my praise, gratitude, and life…
xoxo
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