pick'n'apart a picnic...

Happy Lord's Day!

Wake-up: 7:30am
Coffee: 2TBSP of SF Hazelnut Creamer + 2 sweeteners
Breakfast: 1 Dannon Oikos Greek Yogurt + 1 pretzel graham Smashbar.... Not the healthiest of choices, but like most days I was rushing....

CHURCH! I taught SundaySchool again this week.  I did a lesson on LaborDay and Rest and what God say's about rest in the Bible.  It turned out really well.... The Pastor's Mom gave me a Stevia Plant!!! Here she is.... I'm taking name suggestions....:

After coming home to let the dogs out and grab out picnic gear we headed out to my family's farm...

Picnic..... I don't know if it was the heat, humidity, rain, or children that was on my last good nerve, but I will say I did not have fun in any way.  I know it's sad and I'm sure someone in my family will be offended, but my goal is to not blog about pretty flowers and daisies.  I find it annoying that every other word needs to be a curse word.... Maybe people don't realize it makes them seem uneducated, but it's horrible to be around... especially around kids.... It is to a point where I feel torn when I'm with my family... I feel like a dirty Christian.... Like I'm being untrue to who I am, who I am becoming, and who Christ wants me to be.  I'm to a point where I just don't want to be near it.... Really who would? I know I know that used to be me... in fact 8 months ago that was me... And yes I do occasionally still curse... However once in a while compared to every other word is a big leap.... *sigh* Please keep this situation in prayer for me my friends as I know it's just another wedge between me and my family... I've never felt like I truly belonged in my family and the older I get the more obvious it is.

I didn't stay as on track with food as I'd have liked... Of course like every family picnic it takes until everyone is halfway filled up on junk food for anyone to get the brilliant idea to set the 'real' food out.... in the mean time I munched on a handful of chips, a couple handfuls of grapes, and a few chips with buffalo chicken dip...  Thankful one of my Aunts suggested that we eat.... I had this....

Sad I know.... so then I had this....

Then a few bites of this....

This is a diet pie my aunt had made me... it was good... weird... good... weird

at least she is supportive of me and tried

then 3 of these.....

These were some kind of giant marshmellows... I found them odd...

and 1 of these....

Yikes... yeah a little off track.... I know I wouldn't stay perfect for the day but I'd had hoped for better....

Once we got home my continued grumpy mood and misery of the day continues..... I was trying to unpack the cooler when I knocked over and entire large sweet tea... no it wasn't mine.... that's probably what made it worse... it made a giant sticky mess... after 10minutes of cleaning that up... then putting all leftover food into smaller containers and washing the containers that were dirty I decided I was starving... I heated up the leftovers from last night and that is when disaster struck again.... I dropped and entire large unsweetened iced tea all over the floor... and yes this time it was mine.... I was angry annoyed and in tears... after it was cleaned up I finally sat down to eat some real food:

1 turkey burger and asparagus

I'm exhausted, miserable, and full of grumpiness... I'm hoping I can sleep this off....
Calories... about 2000 give or take.... water not so great.... exercise none.....
Now I'm going to take my miserable self to bed... Praying I wake up in a much better mood!

Praises: That I have people who love me and try to help me... I'm so very thankful for that not matter how few they are!

xoxo