I’m soooooo sleeeepyyy….zzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Wake-up: 5:50am
Hair/make-up/clothes/coffee/pack food/set up crock-pot/drive to work/work/break/work/lunch/work/break/work/drive to the gym/ workout/ drive home/ get a shower/ eat dinner/ write blog/ post blog/ go to sleep
The evil scale tempted me this morning. I actually had to argue with myself and talk myself out of stepping on. I had blogged a couple of days ago that I wanted not to focus on the # on the scale, but to focus on the way I felt about myself. So that I what I’m working on… However, seeing that scale staring at me every morning is sooo tempting…. It’s like it’s calling my name asking me to step on it…. Wanting to torture and torment me and play with my emotions…. I resisted!
Coffee: 2 TBSP of SF Hazelnut Creamer + 2 sweeteners
Smoothie: 1scoop of vanilla whey protein + 1 tsp of orange SF Metamucil + half of an FRS energy drink in Apricot Mango…. You’ll notice I omitted the banana… that’s 90calories for later in the day! Although the banana added some healthy fiber and potassium it didn’t add much bulk for the calories…. The taste was equally as good if not better without it!
Breakfast: 1 Strawberry Yogurt with ¼ of a cup of cranberry & nut trail mix
Snack: 2 TBSP of roasted red pepper garlic with 1 peeled and sliced cucumber
Lunch: 2 cups of boxed Italian style wedding soup (giant eagle brand) + 2 cups of watermelon + 1 serving of Tangy Tomato Cracker Crisps from Aldi’s
Snack: 1 Chocolate and Oats Fiber One Bar
Workout: 25min on the treadmill 15min on the recumbent bike
NEW RECIPE ALRERT!!!! Here is a super easy dinner idea that only takes about 5 minutes to get going in the crock-pot!
Dinner:
1 Frozen Jennie-O brand White Meat Turkey Roast with Gravy + 1 Large bag of Frozen ‘Stew’ Vegitables
Put them together in a crock-pot
No silly not like that!!!!
Like this:
Add about ½ of a cup of water to the bottom of your crock pot place veggies in the bottom… pry the frozen roast/gravy out of the tin pan and place on top of the veggies!... turn on low… Then after it cooks on low all day while you’re at work it will look like this…..
YUMS!!!!
This was a serving….
Here is the calorie break down this made approx 4 servings and each serving was 320calories! YUMS! Since both ingredients are super cheap and cook well from frozen this will be a recipe I keep around for a while!
I also had a 100 calorie chocolate ice cream bar! YUM!
Calories: 1,500 yay! right on track Water: was on the low side today and what I did drink I had to force down!
Time for ranting and whining:
I’ve been spending a lot of time today planning what to take to my family’s picnic on Sunday. I know this sounds crazy but, since it’s a ‘weenie roast’ I’m going to bring my own hot dogs and buns. This way I know exactly how many calorie it is…. Additionally I plan on making 1 healthy side and bringing some fruit as well… J This should help me to stay on goal. I’m not saying I won’t eat anything else I will just extremely sparingly. There will also be drinking and even though my feelings are mixed on this issue… I’ve decided that since it is a Sunday anyways I’ll be sitting this round out. I’m not saying ‘oh drinking is a sin’ I don’t necessarily agree with that, but I don’t not necessarily agree with it to an extent. I’m still trying to find my way in the Christian faith and this is one area where I haven’t formed a personal opinion. However, I’m trying to live a healthy lifestyle and the calories in alcohol as well as the effects that it has on ones weight are pushing me to say that it’s not right for me right now where I am in my life. I equated my family today to drug dealers with food. Maybe that seems like a harsh equation and I know that some of them may be reading this, but… I often feel as though food is pushed upon me. Especially at family functions… ‘did you try that?’ ‘here have a bite’ ‘what you’re dieting’ ‘it’s a holiday’… It’s over whelming… There are many people in my family who I believe are food addicts just like me…. Turning to food for all the wrong reasons… Because they don’t see that food is killing them they don’t fix it…. I’m working on fixing it for me… I’m going to do my best to stay strong and remember that what may taste good in the moment will give me horrible guilt later!
I’ve been struggling today with some jealousy issues… I know this probably sounds crazy…. But I get jealous when I see other people’s success. It’s been in my face a lot lately… From people in my weight loss group, people in my family, people on my dieting website… I see all these people who are having great and amazing success… I think why… WHY GOD can’t I have that? God reminded me today that this is my journey and that is their journey. I should be happy for them that they were able to find success… whether it was via surgery, a no carb diet, weight watchers, or however they obtained their success. I still feel the twinge of jealousy and it’s something I’m praying on. I know that MY journey is different. For me surgery wouldn’t be the answer. I’d still make bad food choices… This isn’t a quick fix that I want its long term health. No carb wouldn’t work. Weight Watchers isn’t MY thing. THIS is MY thing… Staying accountable… Tracking what I eat… Not binge eating unhealthy foods… trying to live a healthy lifestyle… working out all of my weird food issues… creating a new healthy lifestyle that I can maintain long term… THIS is MY JOURNEY…. To be jealous of someone else’s journey isn’t being fair to myself… There may be someone out there reading this right now who is jealous of what I’m doing…. Create your own journey…. It might not be about weight but create your own journey and share it with others so that instead of being jealous we can all be inspired to be better people…. So God can look down at each of us and smile and say ‘Look those are my children’.
As you can see it’s been a very emotional day and I’ve had a lot flowing through my mind. I’ve been trying to stay in prayer with God asking for guidance today. I think women have days where our emotions seem to be running rapid. Today just happens to be mine.
Praises: I’m so thankful for God showing me that jealousy is not necessary. For showing me I am headed the right direction. I’m praying He’ll keep showing me the way.
xoxo
I totally get what you said about the jealousy thing. It is forced upon us though. Everywhere we look there is always someone who is doing better than we are or having it easier than us and the world shows us how to be jealous of them. I tend to think that way about my life in general sometimes. Why do people just get things handed to them and I have to work so hard at what I want or have and why does it hurt my heart so bad. But then in the long run I try to look at it as, if I would have been just given it would I have appreciated it as much than if I wouldnt have worked so hard for it. The same with weight loss. If I would have had surgery or something would I have appreciated the journey and the lessons that I have learned along the way.
ReplyDeleteYou are absolutly right. It is your journey and if it wasn't you wouldn't learn from your mistakes and accomplishments. And if you were doing it easily, you may not have thought about writing this blog and inspire others along the way. Including myself...
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