Have you ever been physically and emotionally pushed by Christ in the same day?

CRIPES! I woke up late again! You will eventually notice this is a running theme in my life J

Wake-up: 6am

Weight: 255.8  So far I’ve lost just over 16lbs… **does the I’m so skinny dance**  ok realistically I’m nowhere near thin!  However…..

I VIEW EVERY POUND AND EVERY OUNCE AS A VICTORY!

Sometimes I swear the devil comes and steals time off the clock in the morning just to get me flustered and throwing a fit.  I gulped down my coffee (today I went with 1TBSP creamer, 2 sweeteners, and a dash of cinnamon).  I rushed around trying to get ready for work and here is where I made a huge mistake….

I wanted so badly to wake up early and do the new kettle bell exercise I had borrowed from a co-worker and I didn’t. I didn’t pre-plan my food for the day either.  I preach pre-planning to anyone who will listen and here I am looking like fool.  Well, enough beating myself up about it I’ll pick up the pieces and learn from my mistakes.  Everything happens in life so that God can show us the way. Today God showed me to stop being a lazy bum in the morning and get out of bed on time! Lesson learned!

God’s also been teaching me another lesson, but I’ll speak more of that later in today’s blog…..

I quickly packed my lunch and started throwing together a smoothie…. It wasn’t the best smoothie I’ve ever made in fact it was not very appetizing.  I forced myself to drink most of it because I knew if I didn’t I’d regret it in an hour or so.

Smoothie: 1 scoop chocolate whey protein 1tsp orange Metamucil 1 banana and 1/4cup of oatmeal

Note to self: Don’t ever add oatmeal again. It sounded good in theory when someone else told you about it bad in execution.

45 minute commute…. Work… water… work… water….break!

Snack1: Dannon Light&Fit strawberry yogurt. 1 ‘diet’ cupcake (see yesterdays blog for details)

Work… sip water... Work… hungry tummy pains…. Peppermint tea to calm tummy…Water….Work…LUNCH!

Today’s lunch is eerily similar to yesterday’s.  I normally try to do something different everyday however since I didn’t cook dinner last night I was a little limited.

Lunch: 2cups raw mixed carrots/celery/cucumbers, 2TBSP Bolthouse Mustard Yogurt dressing, 1 pouch of tuna, 16 wheat crackers…. The only difference today… This is a BIG tuna pouch! … and a ‘diet cupcake’. That thankfully is the last of those tasty tempters!

I have come to love the flavored tuna pouches.  Today’s flavor is Lemon Pepper. So tasty!  You get 6oz for 120calories.  I usually try to bulk up on protein because it helps me stay full.  If you have yet to try the flavored tuna pouches I urge you to give it a try.  I especially like the sweet n spicy flavor!

Work…. Water… work… cup of green tea… water… work… break!

Snack 2: ½ of a 100 calorie bag of pop corn

Work….. water… tea…. Water… work…. Get in car drive…. GYM!

UGH! It’s been days since I hit the gym.  Sometimes life gets too insane and I need to get a better grip of my schedule.  This is something I’ve been praying on and asking God to guide me in.  Sometimes I also ask him to put two extra hours in the day!

Work out: I had an Amen A-mazing workout.  I worked harder today than ever.  I pushed myself as hard as I could.  By the sheer power of God I did something today I can’t ever remember doing.  I ran. Not long. Not far. Bur I ran.  I was psyching myself out of it.  I kept wanting to try but was too afraid.  I begged God from my heart to touch me and to put his hands on me and to push me.  I swear to you that I felt the hands of our Lord and Savior upon me. I felt God with me pushing me to run. I knew in that moment I was not alone in this journey.  I praise him for giving me the strength and courage I didn’t ever think I would ever get.

Tonight at the gym I did a mile in 22 minutes.  I know that may not seem like a big deal or a great accomplishment.  When I started this journey almost two months ago I could barely make a mile in 30minutes.  When I was done I would look like I beat down rag doll.  Now I’m pushing through the pain and make progress on my time and stamina.

Here are the stats on the machines when I was done:



This is my 1 mile time!



This shows my total distance in 30minutes

14 minutes on the bike and I went 1.87miles. I can't wait to learn to ride a real bike!

Wipe the sweat off…. Catch my breath… in the car… driving… to the drive-thru!

One of my favorite parts of Wednesdays… McDonalds! I know I know its horrible food. They load it with xyz and it will kill you.  I know!  I order basically the same thing every Wednesday that I go to bible study.  It’s quick and I can eat it in the car. It fills me up enough that I consider it dinner and it’s less than 400 calories.

Dinner: McDonald’s- Grilled Chipotle Chicken Snack wrap with extra lettuce and add pickles, a fruit and walnut salad, and a large unsweetened iced tea with 3 splenda. 

I eat this while driving (yes I am that talented). 

Bible study…. Drive home… blog…shower…. Sleep (hopefully)

Earlier I stated there was something that I felt God was trying to teach me and deal with me about.  That’s accountability and excuses.  I’ve been pretty annoyed at a couple of people in my life lately over various things and it all falls back on accountability and excuses.  If you say you are going to do something do it.  This has been driving me insane lately.  I’ve been relying on people to be somewhere, do something, make something, act a certain way, participate in a certain activity and I feel I’m always given these excuses.  Such as well my kids, my husband, the church, my family, my friends all this stuff is happening making it so that I can’t do whatever it is I had already said I was going to do.  This annoys and aggravates me to no end.  Then I realized I’ve been doing it to.  I’ve been waking up late because I’m tired because I was out late at church so I didn’t do the kettle bell I wanted to do. Wow Jen you are no better than everyone else.  So I’m attempting to change that.  I need to be accountable.  We all do.  People rely on us each and every day and we have no idea how it impacts them when we let them down.  I’m praying that God helps me to keep accountable and not use excuse.  He’s showing me more and more everyday how my life and excuse may impact others!

Praises: I’m so thankful for what God provides me.  I realize more and more each and every day how blessed I am.  To be able to live the lifestyle I do, have a full-time job, a car, a gym membership, a wonderful and supportive church family, friends who take time to read my blog and care about my life, and family who even though I’m crazy still indulge some of my fantasies.  I am thankful for each and every one of you reading this right now.  God put you here to read this. To see what I’m doing. To keep me accountable. To inspire you. To help you. To show you His love.

xoxo